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The day I spent Christmas in camp. Well, I'd treat it in a once in a lifetime experience because when I look back in the future, I'll be able to tell myself that for once in my life I didn't have Christmas to myself. SAF had me.
Anyway I want to talk about what happened last week. My friend and I were just looking at old pictures of our secondary 2 class and going crazy about how bad we looked when we were 14. But it brought back memories of our secondary school days. So then the most wonderful thing happened the next day when I went to do duty in camp. I was posted to the air force training school for guard duty, and during lunch, I met my secondary school friends! Some of them anyways, but the most coincidental thing was that I met those people whom I saw in the pictures I had in my computer the previous day!
What a wonderful (and small) world. Cool eh?
Really nice catching up with them!
And as usual I can't help feeling inferior to others because I hear that they have scholarships or get into good courses or even scoring well for their exams. I ask myself, what has become of me? I used to be at my peak, excelling in what I did yet enjoying my life at the same time. Now life's just seems so forced on me. No, its not just NS. I've come to terms with it already.
Today, my aunt called and I spoke with her about university courses and retaking my As. As she was saying, "Education is very important, it determines your future, your life." Yes, I know that and I know everyone knows that. But its just my grades.
"You didn't do well for your exams right?"
She said it, straight up to the point. And then the topic of uni courses came up... and money.
I'm not going to make this post a sympathetic one. Though I know it definitely sounds REALLY pathetic right now.
I need to figure out what I really want in life. I need to do it fast. I need to come to terms with myself. God help me.
2010 is coming to a close. It's been a bad year. I hope 2011 works much better in my favour.
Merry belated Christmas everyone!
Hail Mary.