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19th Birthday
I had a really different birthday today.
With lots of mixed emotions and all.
That said, it was special to me.
Happy birthday to me! (:
Hail Mary.
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When I sit at home too long, my butt hurts.
Yup, that's exactly what happens to me.
So the remedy? Go out with friends so that time passes and you get to spend quality time with them. 
Dinner at SC's workplace which was at CHIJMES. Food was incredibly expensive but it was nice. I think I spent quite a lot there but the food really was not too bad. Might go back there for drinks one day! Thanks for the company, guys! 
Meeting up with my Holy Innocents' Primary School (HIPS) friends.
See, this is what I call a gathering. Getting 4H to meet up on one day took so much time and effort. This outing was planned 2 days before and more than 10 people turned up. Tsk. 4H friends, YOU OWE ME AN EXPLANATION --- and your presence of course.
Anyways, going back to HIPS indeed brought back memories. Lots of stuff have changed I guess, but I think the memories with friends and the school environment is still as vibrant as ever. We met up, chatted and then had dinner nearby.
We should meet up again soon. Considering our last gathering was in 2007... See you guys in 2012 perhaps? 
Lol. Qam is such a mat seriously.
Haha.
Met up with the SLs and the SPSLs for a combined SL/PSB outing last week.
Dinner at pizza hut wasn't what we expected because we thought we could have a 5-course meal special thing but they didn't have it at marina square so =/.
Ate like 2 slices of pizza only. Haix. Haha, but never mind, spending time with you guys was more important right? :)
Yup, so after dinner we walked around to Esplanade area and then literally "relac one corner" in the underground pass where we watched break dancers do their smooth grooves and we chatted for about an hour plus about life, love and our future.
WE NEED TO GO CAMPING TOGETHER AGAIN ONE DAY.
Cos NS doesn't count at all.
Met up with Grace Khoo, Bryan, Junhao and Ade last week at Ehub to pass them their class tees. Grace had to go church so I met her on the bus and then passed it to her there. Brought the other 3 to my favourite korean bbq chicken restaurant where we had dinner. I still like the food there and thank goodness they updated their playlist of kpop songs. :D
Anyway, I don't think I might meet Ade anytime soon cuz she's going overseas.
Bon Voyage and take care!!!
2 more weeks to enlistment.
Time passes by when you're having fun, no?
Hail Mary.
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Don't be good to me
Stop being good to me.
Don't ever be good to me again.
I get on my knees in front of love.
I don't have the confidence to be hurt.
If your feelings are different,
If your feelings are different from mine...
When someone asks, I'll introduce you calmly,
As just a person I know.
Hail Mary.
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State of bliss
Kim Tae Woo's Love Rain. One of his best performances ever. I encourage all of you to watch it. And he sings his falsetto effortlessly. One word - Amazing.
It's always nice to watch this kind of feel-good video on a sad, frustrating day like today. Sigh.
Hail Mary.
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Hell Hole
I like to exercise. I really do. There's some kind of liberating feel to it whenever you have a nice long run, or you're working those muscles of yours while stretching them... in my case, training for pull ups again. :(
Well, not only does exercising help in building my physique, I think another perk of exercising is simply, the time to contemplate. After my run yesterday, I just sat under one of the void decks at my house and thought about stuff. The sky was a dark blue with the sun setting, the leaves of the trees in front of me, waving in the wind...
Then I thought, how am I going to live this one month of mine before NS to the fullest? It seems so empty, yet so full of things I want to do. And as usual, I looked back on what I've done the past year, on whether I've made the right decisions, or even how I could change whatever I have done.
That said, I guess nothing much can be done to undo what I've done... perhaps I need to think of how I am going to live my life in the future. Anyway, to let all of you in on something... I wish I was in NS now. Somehow I think I would be happier in there. I suppose home to everyone is like a refuge, but to me, home is a hell hole. Seriously, there's the endless screaming and shouting and whatnot. All that bullshit is driving me nuts. And I hate being dragged into my parents' disputes. Like wtf.
That's why I'm not planning to get married. Think about it. Nowadays divorce rates are on the hike. Have you ever thought why? To me it's simply the average life span of a person becoming longer. Can you imagine getting married to a person for like, 50 years? Call me cynical or whatever, but don't you think most marriages end when these couples are in their old age? Have you heard of the 7-year cycle of marriage? Yes, meaning every 7 years or multiple thereof, a couple will get divorced. SO WHY PUT YOURSELF THROUGH THAT PAIN?
Not only are you dragging your spouse down, you are also screwing up the lives of your children. Wanna get married? Settle your damn disputes first before deciding to tie the knot. OR get married and don't have children or they will end up just as f-ked up as you are.
I've seen how my own family and relatives are unhappy about their married lives. Even the old generation is having issues. I think, my family is just cursed to have rocky marriages, no?
So much for Holy Family week last week!
I think the reason why the Holy Family is called the Holy Family is simply because NO ONE'S family can be like that.
Hail Mary.
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Criticism is my best friend
IT IS NOT THE CRITIC WHO COUNTS:
Not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly, who errs and comes up short again and again... who spends himself in a worthy cause; who, at the best, knows, in the end, the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least he fails while daring greatly.
credit: TIME
Hail Mary.