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Whuut?
Started term 3 off with schoolmates coming up to me and asking, “Is that you in Broader Perspectives?” or “Hey, I saw your picture in Broader Perspectives!” these questions were met with question marks that grew larger and larger as people threw questions at me. I was like, uh, I don’t know? EduSave sorta fucked up on me so I haven’t received a single copy of the magazine.
Anyways, thanks to my classmate for lending me her magazine! Finally, I saw my picture and there is one word that can describe it: UNGLAM.
Nice magazine cover, no?
This is a picture of VS Cross Country 2006.
Err, yes as you can see I look absolutely retarded with a capital “R”.
Chester’s beside me and on the right you can see WJ and ZP.
Oh yes, and let’s not forget our seniors who are cheering around the flags.
I wanted to sue Broader Perspectives for using such a fugly picture but I can’t because the picture they used is from creative commons on flickr.com. That means anyone can reprint the photos without worrying about any copyright issues. Well then, I shan’t pursue the matter.
Ok I need to let out a lot of emotions right now but I won’t add it to this post. I’ll leave it to another time then.
-Random-
I'm currently doing a P.E. MCQ tutorial for E-learning.
It's a tutorial about the Olympic Games.
How exciting!
Hail Mary.
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What is normalcy?
I quote from a friend's blog:
"The baby steps I have taken back to normalcy have now become more confident. But the seeming calm and quiet feels unnerving. Silence is but the loudest noise of all... Is it the beginning of the end? Or is it the calm before another bigger, scarier storm? Only time will tell."
I think I’m feeling just like that in school right now. I have chosen to lie low in school and keep a somewhat low profile so as to work harder on my grades. That has come up rather… futile, I must say. Sigh. I hope I made the right decisions. If I’m really not cut out to do well in my studies, then I have hardly anything to fall back on. I need all the help I can get from now on.
I feel so fucked up nowadays, especially when I get back my results. The thing is, I feel sad for a while then I cheer up really quickly again. I’m not sure if that is a good sign or not, but it seems I have become somewhat indifferent to bad grades.
Gosh, what is happening to me?!
That's bad, isn't it?
I remember discussing this with a friend before.
We agreed that everyone’s trying to find happiness through knowledge. We just need to realize it soon enough.
We might never ever find that happiness… but at least we’re trying to look for it, right?
Hail Mary.
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Here, have some crack.
There was a rock.
Just a teeny weeny little rock.
The rock had rough and undulating edges. Ugly cracks scarred its body, threatening to tear it apart any moment, reducing the rock to nothing but a pile of dirt.
Like many other things in this world, the rock was flawed.
“Why…” the rock asked, “am I so flawed, so cracked… so broken.”
The trials and tribulations of life continue to torment us day after day, leaving crack after crack on our bodies.
And it hurts, it hurts each time.
But we can do nothing. The cracks are there for a reason, of course……
to let the light of Hope shine through.
We need to find it within ourselves to do so.
Let’s hope it’s soon enough.
Hail Mary.