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Up or down?
I’ve been spending the past few minutes visiting blogs. Enjoyed reading Kevin Ng’s blog spot because it gave me much food for thought. You can read his blog post here.
I think I shall do a little round up of this month of May before moving on to other topics. May has been a month of mayhem and madness. We had A level SPAs, which I seriously don’t know how I’d fare. I was depressed for a few days after one of them and I’m happy for the encouragement some of my friends gave to me. It did lift my spirits tremendously.
There were many tests… some were fairly well done, and some… dismal. I know many a time we give the reason that “It’s a class/cohort thing, everyone didn’t do well.” I don’t know, it just doesn’t feel substantial enough to be a reason for sickly grades. Why conform to the standard of others, be someone outstanding, I say. Yes, it’s almost impossible in our competitive world… but we try. Be a non-conformist.
(A friend chided me about this before.
“By becoming a non-conformist, you are actually conforming to being a non-conformist!” I got stunned.)
But, as one of my classmates mentioned, June Common Tests will be our redemption. Hopefully that’d be the case, or we’d just burn in hell a little while more. =)
Teachers. Goshness, some of them are really pissy. I don’t know why some of them have really changed over the course of term 2. Work stress? Unhappiness with the class? Hmm. Lessons have somewhat become mundane and rigid, where’s all the joy in learning gone to…?
Moving on, what’s up with people and acceptance? I think many of us chase this dream… a dream of being accepted, to be in the company of others that you engage with most of the time. Sadly, when we put in so much effort to pursue acceptance, we lose ourselves in the process. We evolve into someone or something that we’re not. Can you actually catch acceptance?
I’m sure we’ve all struggled with this issue before… it’s scary. But I think each of us has our own way of overcoming it. At times, we need to embrace our imperfections to embrace the imperfection of others, don’t we? Okay, I think I’m struggling with that right now, how about you?
“Honor. Dignity. Self-respect.
Although when I think about it, I’ve never had any of those things. I didn’t ask to be born. I’ve always made the wrong decisions --- now I’m letting life decide for me.”
Hail Mary.
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I'm a horror movie
Over the course of the past 2 weeks, it has come to my attention that there are many things that I don’t notice but people around me seem to do so.
I would call them shocking revelations… though I’m rather doubtful.
First let me make a Miss Universe statement.
*puts hands on hips and smiles like a retard*
”I believe that, everyone, has a good heart in them.”
Yes, I know, I should set up my own charity foundation like, right now. But yeah, honestly I do. I mean some people really irk the shit out of you, but when you sit down and think about it, it ain’t that bad. Maybe I’m just being too sensitive or something, I don’t know.
Okay, like I was with a group of my friends that day and there was some serious bitching taking place. I never knew they could assess a person so well. And by assessing I mean thrashing out all of that person’s bad points openly. Really, I never knew. But I guess I wouldn’t let such comments affect me simply because I regard these people as my friends.
Indifference is a beautiful thing at times.
Reading too much into something, ain’t.
Moving on, it seems that I intimidate people (omg, really?!). Yes, people have commented that I look very moody and grumpy most of the time, and that’s what deters them from approaching or talking to me. I know that when I go out sometimes, I like to give a pissed off look because it gives me some air that I find very exciting. It’s like a rush of power that floods your veins.
But in school… I don’t think I do, do I? Well, apparently I do so… whatever, really. I mean, if you honestly think that I’m an unfriendly person, then seriously, stop giving me that kind of look that makes me want to punch your eyes in and make you die a slow and painful death.
Sheesh, what is the world coming to?
In my opinion, everyone puts on a façade when they’re in school, and you just can’t be that animated/bubbly persona all the time simply because it’s tiring and everyone has their day off.
YOU CAN’T PLEASE EVERYONE.
PLEASE.
Hail Mary.
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TJC Students’ Council Investiture
I was part of it.
Well… not as a councillor, but part of the audience. It was something different to be sitting in the crowd for once, after all we went through planning and executing SLI in VS. Anyways, not only were students invested, their seniors were out-vested. So it wasn’t a surprise that emotional levels were really sky high. It almost brought tears to my eyes when I looked at some of the councillors speaking so passionately about their time in council and stuff and it reminded me of the times I was part of the student boards in VS. Yeah, but we have to move on… we can’t hold on to things that we have no control over.
I’m part of something wholly different now, and I’m very proud of it.
Some pictures:
Met Wei Ling at TJ that day. Congrats to her on being part of HCI’s SC! Yes, I think you’d definitely extend your network in SC. All the best!
’Cuz we all need to camwhore once in a while.
Bobby is just stoning with the same expression. Haha.
TJ DRAMA ROCKS.
It was Wednesday night when we received a message telling us to be in school by 7.15a.m. the next day for SYF results. If anyone was missing, the results will not be made known to us. Each drama member made our way to school and waited in the arts hubs with our hearts beating like crazy. Both the actors and the crew had worked their butts off for SYF which was held the week before, and we were dying to know the results.
The teachers came; our director and set designer arrived shortly after. We were given a little talk by one of teachers that SYF was not the actual gauge of our talent in TJ and some other stuff. Okay, there was A LOT of talk going on and it only made us crave the results more, more and MORE!
“We received the GOLD…
We clapped, we cheered
.… with HONOURS!”
We clapped, we cheered, we screamed and we cried.
It was almost an endless wave of emotion that swept all over us. Gosh, now I know how it feels like to do well in SYF. It’s a great feeling.
Yeah!
GOOD JOB EVERYONE!
Don’t make a scene, make DRAMA! (:
House Committee Investiture
Attended this investiture too, but not as an audience or a committee member… I was the emcee!
I have the power of reading out your names, darlings.
Well if I think you suck, which is hardly ever the case… *coughs* I might just read your names out wrongly just so I could get some sadistic kick out of it because I’m such a mean boy. Bwahahaa.
But no, I do things professionally… so there.
Kudos to everyone in charge of executing the HC investiture. Though I thought some rehearsals were really bad because SOME people were really disrespectful…
Yaya and I rocked the auditorium that Friday morning! Heh.
Cheryl, I think you did a great job too, don’t mind those ungrateful people.
Yupps.
Mardi Gras 08
I think everyone was a bundle of nerves just before our performance. It had been 3 months of crazy rehearsal schedules, tough love from the teachers and each and every one of us who had to grapple with the complexity of our play, Dead on Cue.
We went on stage that night, not knowing what the outcome would be. I think the audience liked it from their laughter that resonated occasionally in the lousy acoustics of the auditorium. Anyways, I would like to thank every single drama member who helped in one way or another. The crew, our seniors and my fellow cast mates who were there for us whenever we needed help. It was wonderful to see everyone providing emotional support before the performance, it was really helpful!
We pulled off our play to the best of our abilities. And I’m so very proud of it.
Oh yes, I would like to thanks everyone who supported our play that night. My family, my friends and every single one of you were present in the auditorium that day. Shame on you if you did not come watch our play! You little $#^#$&^$&!
Okay, I’m just kidding.
But yes, do come support TJ Drama Night sometime later this year. We will putting up both our SYF and Mardi Gras plays. So you better take some time off, dears.
CG 20/08, WE HAD A GREAT TIME WITH OUR BOOTH AT MARDI GRAS AND WE DID A REALLY NICE JOB SO IT DOESN’T MATTER IF WE LOST MONEY OR NOT BUT IT’S THE EXPEREINCE THAT WE GAINED WORKING TOGETHER. LOVE Y’ALL! =)
Pictures!
There weren’t many because I was busy with my play.
Oh well, missed so many great photo ops.
Our drama teachers felt fruity that evening.
Oh yes, one of our drama teachers dressed up as a PIMP!
And and, our seniors dressed up as King Henry, The Flinstones (who won the best dressed, by the way) and one of them was an IMP!
Heh.
We have such crazy, but COOL people in drama!
Group picture!
Kenrick’s a little cut off, oops.
Thanks for coming down to support me guys!
Love! =)
Scandalous!
What are you looking at?!
Someone wants a piece of me.
But I say no, no, no.
Term 2 is finally over, it took us a long time to crawl to the end but we made it. Time to do some catching up people, jiayous!!!
Some things are beyond my control though, but I’d leave that to another post.
Hail Mary.
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Dora the explorer...?
Click here!
Don't question it!
Just watch it!
Thanks for the link, Kenrick! (:
Hail Mary.
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Social Conscience
Everyone has a conscience…
and so, I’m sure, everyone has a social conscience as well.
Your conscience is what impels you towards the right actions. So what does your social conscience tell you? How are you treating the people around you, whom you are acquainted with? What sort of picture do you paint of yourself?
Think about it.
I have come to the conclusion that, if you live your life on lies, I think you should go kill yourself right now. Thanks.
Anyways, you can’t repair the damage that your fibs have caused, I mean even if you want to, it’d be too late. You’d think of dying in the end.
So yeah, go on! Get it over and done with already! (:
I feel fucked.
Great, now I’ve let out some steam! I’ve wanted to do that for a while now. Heh.
Praying hard that this week ends on a pretty note.
Let the music of life play on and on and on…
Hail Mary.