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What is normalcy?
I quote from a friend's blog:
"The baby steps I have taken back to normalcy have now become more confident. But the seeming calm and quiet feels unnerving. Silence is but the loudest noise of all... Is it the beginning of the end? Or is it the calm before another bigger, scarier storm? Only time will tell."
I think I’m feeling just like that in school right now. I have chosen to lie low in school and keep a somewhat low profile so as to work harder on my grades. That has come up rather… futile, I must say. Sigh. I hope I made the right decisions. If I’m really not cut out to do well in my studies, then I have hardly anything to fall back on. I need all the help I can get from now on.
I feel so fucked up nowadays, especially when I get back my results. The thing is, I feel sad for a while then I cheer up really quickly again. I’m not sure if that is a good sign or not, but it seems I have become somewhat indifferent to bad grades.
Gosh, what is happening to me?!
That's bad, isn't it?
I remember discussing this with a friend before.
We agreed that everyone’s trying to find happiness through knowledge. We just need to realize it soon enough.
We might never ever find that happiness… but at least we’re trying to look for it, right?
Hail Mary.