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Alas...
Yesterday was the last day for House Committee (HC) nomination forms to be handed in. My friends, who are in Students’ Council, have been urging me to join HC but I have been apprehensive the whole time. Anyways, I didn’t hand in the form. I don’t know if I made the right decision but I think that I'm happy with what I have now.
I feel kinda bad that I didn’t listen to them, but if I joined HC to accede to your requests, I wouldn’t be doing it for myself anymore. School hasn’t been that great either… I’ve been failing tests and all, and I just feel that I haven’t been putting in enough effort. It’s probably with all this shit that I feel apprehensive about signing up for anything.
I hate the fact that I’m labelled as an appeal student. When I log into my student account, I see that I joined by “appeals”. I definitely can’t take things for granted because I’ve been given this “second life” but it's sucky when you don’t do well. Maybe it has made me stronger as a person? Or weaker? I don’t know.
But what I know is, if you did get into the school through your merit. Own it, I say. OWN IT. Stop giving me the crap that you’re too busy with this and that or you hate your life in school, and that’s what’s bringing you down. HELLO, I’m trying to prove to myself and others why I AM HERE,
WHY I CAN LIVE UP TO MY, OR OTHER’S EXPECTATIONS.
So I’m trying my best to survive here, and so should you.
Suck it up, people.
I know we can all do so much better.
Hail Mary.