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You have me suicidal
Did everyone have a wonderful Easter weekend?
If you’ve been reading my previous posts, I shall assume you’d know that I’ve been feeling suicidal. For the record, I almost got hit by car and a motorcyclist 2 days in a row. And the scariest thing is that I actually feel proud of it.
Yeah so I spent a part of my weekend thinking how I should write my suicide notes and who I should address them to. I did plan out what I’d write to everyone you know. Family, friends, media… you know the like. But I think getting knocked down by a vehicle is simply too painful. I mean, you’d probably be writhing away after getting hit and death is slow and painful… unless it’s like a death-on-impact kind of crash, ya? Still, I’d probably end up disfigured and that wouldn’t look nice when you peer at me.
No no, I think pills are the way to go. How thrilling…
Alright but I’m glad to say that I don’t feel suicidal any longer… at least I think I don’t.
I'm a conflicted soul. (:
Moving on, I was thinking today about where you guys think is the best place to think about stuff in your life, school, social life, family et al. I figured the best place I could really think was when I was taking a bath. Yep, just letting the cold water run on your face and closing your eyes to think while taking controlled breaths. I feel it’s very therapeutic. How about you? Where do you think is the best place to think?
I just realised I typed so many “thinks” in that paragraph.
Well, so P.E. today was exhilarating. I should like blog about P.E. more often. (That could be my new passion!) We did like wheelbarrows and piggybacking. My classmates were like scrambling to carry me because I’m like, light. That was funny. Oh yeah, there was some serious bitching taking place too, and it involved guys!!!
Yeah, I realised that I should proclaim my love for P.E. teachers right here and right now. I mean, no matter how much you dislike them, they ain’t gonna disappear when you snap your fingers. (Unless I do something about it, muahaha.) So my dear P.E. teachers, here’s some loving from me and I hope you reciprocate it huh? =)
I got home today and realised that my mum bought like 2 big packs of Oreo. When I saw the packs, I laughed because it reminded me of what my classmate said today. It’s a class joke so it’s okay if you don’t get it!
Hail Mary.