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Confidence = Proud?
School has been awful for me today.
I felt especially depressed today when I got back my chemistry surprise test, which I failed terribly. I failed my Econs assignment as well since it was also a surprise one. Oh dear, what is happening to me? This is not a good start to a new year and a new life. Definitely a big NO NO.
My classmate was telling me that it was okay to fail as its JC and it’s quite common to fail tests in school but to me, I simply can’t take such a setback. Like, when I see a good grade or a bad grade on my script, it can totally change my day.
So does it mean that I haven’t been able to grasp the concepts? Or I’m simply not well-prepared enough? Looks like I have to be on my toes all the time from now on, you never know when the teacher might spring a fast one on you.
But I’m sure I can do this, I know I can, call me an over-achiever or whatever, I don’t want to repeat my mistakes ever again. I can’t afford this. I will trudge on, a step at a time…
I liked the discussion during PW today. We talked about how a person should behave while doing presentations. And it brought this question to my mind, if a person exudes confidence, it he proud? Would you perceive him as a stuck-up idiot who has no regards for others or applaud him for his ability to put forth a cool front?
We criticize and make comments about others, but we never like it when we have to stand in front of a crowd and have hundreds of pairs on eyes on us, because that itself puts a judgemental slap across your face.
Sure we always say someone sucks and he should just die or something. I’m guilty of that too.
Are you?
I’m trying to change that habit a little by little, I hope it works out. Not just for me, for everyone as well.
Let’s stop wrinkling our noses at others but observe those wrinkles on our noses instead. Imagine that every single wrinkle represents a person whom you have thrown a scathing remark at… does it hurt?
If you could just stop and think for that split moment, it might change a whole lot of things.
Maybe in the future, you could save some bucks on the wrinkle-free cream, huh?
Hail Mary.