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Sianz.
I can’t seem to find peace within myself.
Even though it’s only the 2nd week of school, I feel like I’m struggling already.There’s been a lot of talk in school about the school values of Passion, Purpose and Drive which are all of relevance to everyone, of course.
I’m trying my best to apply that to my life now.
It’s a daunting and uphill task and everyday I try my best to give my all trying to complete my homework and reading up on lecture notes before hand. I keep blaming myself when I can’t seem to pen down the answers to the questions that are in front of me. I blame myself when I can’t read my notes because time does not permit.
I keep telling myself, don’t let the work snowball; don’t let the activities eat into me. I don’t need to have a high profile; I just want a student life that can be managed.
I’m feeling like a wastrel now…
I need to pull myself together already.
Rumours have been flying around that the O levels are next week. Ok, most probably it IS next week. But I sincerely wish that MOE will give us a heads up soon because I don’t think I can take it if they ask us to report to school and inform us like, a day before.
Seriously, I’ll just scream and die there and then.
I need the mental preparation to face those wretched alphabets on my certificate.
I’ll be away at camp for the weekend…
I’ve got a feeling it’s gonna be fun.
Hail Mary.