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Severely Sickening
Tomorrow is the start of horror week I would say. It’s hardcore papers for the next four days and I’m seriously going crazy revising all my notes.
Woke up at 12 today, goodness know why. I slept at 11.30 p.m. the previous night and I don’t think that's very late isn’t it?
My right eye was itching away and I kept having the urge to rub it but I know I can’t or I will aggravate it. But it’s a nagging itch that wouldn’t go away and it sucks. On top of that, I’m sneezing away and my face is feeling all warm and uncomfortable.
How hard is it to study when your body doesn’t want to comply with you? Why do I have to face such crap during one of the most important exams of my life?
Why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why???????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I CAN’T DO BADLY FOR SS, I JUST CAN’T. I BARELY MADE IT THROUGH FOR PRELIM ONE AND I NEED MY A1 FOR HUMANITIES. I HAVE TO DO WELL. I HAVE TO!!!!!!!!!!
Not to mention something bad happened over the weekend and it’s kinda affecting me. Thoughts of death keep flooding in my mind and I keep trying to shake it off. Help.
I can’t let external stuff affect me nor can I let myself get in the way. If I have to gouge my eyeball out or drug myself with flu medicine and continue studying… I swear I will do it for the sake of myself, my results with what little strength I have now.
Will I heave a sigh of relief when I leave the examination hall?
The subsequent exams beckon.
Hail Mary.