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Its been awhile but YES.
Blogger is finally working for me again.
This saves me from the frustrations that I have to endure trying to blog, apart from all the shit I am dealing with right now.
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So let me just start with what’s been going on the past few days. Well Prelim 1 has started and I must say that it hasn’t been easy. Not for me at least, I don’t know how the rest feel about it. I’m sure all of us have to deal with unexpected questions and many have also desperately tried to spot questions for enigma-peppered SS papers.
For me, I studied my ass off for SS, only to be the stupid idiot that I am and waste my time writing an answer and cancelling it because I thought it was irrelevant, of which I found out later that it was actually part of the given factor I was trying to answer the question with. I felt really stupid/confused/angry/emotional after that SS paper. Clutching my heavy humans file, I walked into the MC after the paper and just plonked myself on the sofa-bed, curled up in a foetal position.
I stoned for a while before sobbing, goodness know why but yes, I sobbed for a little while.
I couldn’t help it.
I guess it’s just the expectations that the teachers and those around me that I have to live up to and I think I haven’t done my best effort yet. Sitting there, I wanted to be left alone, but NOOO, I had to be interrupted by people asking me about the SS paper and advice on the following paper.
I mean, can’t I just have a little moment to myself? I promptly used my jacket and buried myself in it, ignoring everyone around me. I didn’t feel any better. Besides, I needed to be in the right state of mind to do my following paper so yes. I do NOT feel apologetic for ignoring you guys who wanted to speak to me. It’s hard to understand when I’m in such a mood, somehow I can’t find myself too.
English was sad, I don’t know but I think I couldn’t finish my magazine report, although I think I did pretty well with my narrative on my problem of bullying I had to over come it. Just hope the teacher doesn’t cringe at my colourful vocab of “shit” and “pale-faced bitch”. I felt it was necessary to drive my point. Hmm.
Prelim 1 has been OK so far. OK being passable and its only half of the prelim 1. SPAs and the 2nd half to go after June hols…
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Alright, so today after my paper I went to parkway to have brunch. Met those creatures from another Sec 4 class at the school bus stop. Damn, how I wish I could slap them till they couldn’t open their bloody mouths again. Their annoying “Nicolas, Nicolas” was soooo getting on my nerves. For goodness sake, I don’t need to speak to you guys, nothing constructive ever does come out from our conversations. And I don’t need you to go around proclaiming that I am your “boyfriend” and the “great times we spent together as an item”. I repeat: I don’t give a shit how you choose to portray your own personality. That only shows how low and screwed up your pathetic life is.
You make me sick.
If payback’s a bitch, and revenge is sweet,
I’ll be the sweetest bitch you’ll ever meet.
(Thanks Kenrick for that one-liner, I finally made use of it!)
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Anyways on a side note, tomorrow is the final prelim paper for the term and I guess everyone is looking forward to a break, albeit a very short one. I think it was really great hanging out with others who were mugging and a special mention to the Sec 3s who made my day by never failing to make me laugh or just break out in a smile when I step in the MC room.
It helps a lot under stressful times like this and I thank you for it... (:
Oh yeah, thanks Danial for sending me the digimon songs, brings back great childhood memories.
[[:: You're so oblivious and now you wonder why you're alone. ::]] says:
ooh the nostalgia listening to digimon songs...
『ダニアル』 倖田來未の新しいのMAXIシングル:『FREAKY』 6.27 on sale! says:
Haha. Yeah. *sigh*
‘Nuff said.
Have a pleasant night y’all.
(Sorry for the crazy post but yeah, I had to get it off my chest!)
Hail Mary.